need to get out more

I made this collage out of the elections paper they so kindly provided me with today. 

I think it looks nice but I am not sure what the peeps are going to think about it...

1st of july

Hopefully soon I will be able to upload this on----wait for it----my own site!!!

Guess what, this exact girl that keeps dissociating her own face let alone her blogs & can't even gather her limbs to keep up with her promises to herself, I will have a site!

Which is probably going to be just another whiny blog like this one, but. But.

Thankfully there's a very talented person that for some obscure reason believes in me and tries to push me to be out there and move forward, especially creativity-wise... 

And damn! It feels so nice to write once you start out.

Anyway, I can't link much so far, but this summer I plan to be focused on that, so I can share what we are up to with everybody as soon as possible. I'm so excited. Not that it is some amazing public project or anything, just another private space on the internet, pretty  much like this one, only it should be easier for me to post the things that I make there.

I don't know. Here's what I made yesterday!

Meanwhile, this is my fourth month in Tokyo this year. And in August I will be visiting my childhood home, which I am choosing not to be thinking about at the moment. Gives me nothing but mild-scale panic attacks.

It will be fine. Must be fine!!!

So I don't forget

Today I drew a lady in a swimsuit.

I feel like I've picked wrong colours for this trip.
But I will still blame everything on the cold.

To be honest I have actually gotten used to the cold. Quite literally. Maybe because all I had to do is remember this feeling, and just accept it once again. My mother seems a bit frustrated each time we are in this frosty situation, but I can't see how she can have the mental energy to.
On the other hand isn't it bizarre how worn out I am...

Not so deep in my heart I am dreaming only about a beautiful grand beehive on my head!
It shall be blond, with a fringe, sides, cut and curled!
So everyone who looks at me just sees this huge, fabulous mash of hair!
And nothing but that! What a life would it be!
What a life

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