Now you know me better

I've mentioned listing my favorite food in the hello-entry, and my baby Mari has requested me to do it... because she likes me and doesn't want me to feel lonely as obviously no one cares about such information. But I will do it. Because I believe in our love.

Put on your red shoes and dance the blues

If anyone wonders, and even if no one does, here's a piece I'm currently working on, and have been doing since... this spring, I think.

And I really like it - could you believe that I'm saying this? There's still TONS to do, but you see - I'm taking time because I can't afford a single wrong move (not anymore, there's been some already!).

So, this is how it looks kind of in general:

 

It's very heavy even on this stage (I'd say it's a halfway), it's going to be even heavier - hope it's going to turn out well. I am going to add some red berries hanging down from a dead branch up there, it's going to be cool. More grass, more freaky details, possibly dark indigo/navy blue/grey (can't decide) background with while cracks... Oh, man, why should I make it real, it looks so good in my head there is no way I can materialize it. It's also quite big, by the way - extra 10 cm on each side of a regular A3. Loads of work, yup.

                     Here's the detail part (not very well thought out, but it's kind of how I usually go):

Just, wish me luck. I really need it.

Also, if anyone gets any idea of what I could still do/improve by any chance - please, hit me with it right in my face. Deal? Good.

If you like me, why don't you try to listen to fantastic M. Ward covering Bowie's fantastic "Let's dance?"

(even if you don't, it's still great)

Expectations & Trying too hard

Here, I am uploading a piece I've been doing for quite some time, and finally kind of... finished. Better to say, I thought: "well, looks like you can't  do anything about this anymore, so... we gotta move on, darling, we gotta live our life no matter what... juts let it go, babe".

So I let go.

Here's the story: my mother asked me for these. No, she actually asked me for some nice flowers, and I turned it into... this. From trying too hard - this is my problem number one. I do try hard, which sometimes is cool, but sometimes just leads to chaos eventually. This one was passed the sign "stahp" and became just a perfect example of what too much is.
Obviously, my mother wasn't pleased - apparently she hated the green and it was too far away from what she was expecting (I assume some kind of provence-fashion would satisfy her more than this circus), and the first feedback that I got wasn't a positive one. Even though I liked what I was doing, her reaction got me down, I didn't want to be careful anymore, and it all just went downhill.

It's a shame you can't see it in good quality - I simply cannot afford it technically at the moment, so these are just the phone photos.
I am not saying I hate this piece (neither I'm in love with it though), some parts of it do please me, and it gave me some quite useful things - to be persistent, to care less, *to keep the in-progress pictures to myself*, to keep the balance, to plan things out... Not to expect too much, I guess. To know where to stop.
Anyway, a failure can't be concerned as a complete failure if you learned your lesson, right?
Good.

a hello word

After good six years of failing miserably at keeping to the commitments my internet self had been setting by creating one diary after another - being all that it makes my internet-diary experience, I decided to take it seriously and give it a purpose.
If you are reading this, most probably you know me already - that is why I am not rushing to self-introductions and listing my favorite food (which I will definitely do later, or just as soon as you ask me to), and most probably you know that I draw a little - and this is, actually, that glorious purpose of this page.

Some people are being kind enough to say they like the small things I do. And I am really proud of it, even if they say it just to stop me crying. Whatever, hello there, I love you.

I will post the stuff that I do, maybe some of what I've done before, some of what makes me feel like doing the stuff I do, all the whys and whats and whos and hows, you know. I really hope to manage to keep this going.
Now, leaving to work on the appearance of this page for a little more & filling it with stuff,
peace!
N.